i've had a unique identity in recent times . from gender , to kins , to other things , i seem to have become a lot of stuff and what that is changes constantly !
sometimes it sucks , not knowing what you are , and what you are constantly changing . i latch onto identities often and become what i surrond myself with constantly . i am very malleable !!!
and , you know , despite my continuously shifting self being pretty problematic to daily functioning , i like it ! (sometimes) . i like most of the changes and the additive way i change based on my surroundings .
yet sometimes it's terrible , being so much , and more than often becoming more . i am a lot , and i mean a lot of things , in unique and occasionally kind of unhealthy ways . but y'know , despite the trouble , i don't think i could handle it stopping . it's like everything or nothing , yeah ?
so hey , i'll keep growing , i'll keep changing , in my own very extreme way . it's a problem , and it fucks a lot of shit up , but it's what i want , and fuck anyone who thinks that's wrong !!!
so yknow what ? fuck em ! to a safe extent that doesn't put you in jeopardy , fuck em ! be whoever you want ! i am me ! we are us , even ! and that is fucking awesome !
i wrote this on my phone while taking a shit lmao